Owl thing

Courtsey of Kazimir

Sister Wendy

Guess who I just remember existed today? Thank you Linda Wing

So I found this website recently that makes me realize how much I still need to do in my life and again how I feel like I'm running out of time. Raul Gutierrez runs Mexican Pictures.com and clearly has done a fair amount of exploration and traveling... I recommend you check it out.

The pictures of the logging camps and prayer flags remind me of some of the landscapes and enviornments I'm trying to create... In no way do I feel comfortable of even able to REcreate these, perhaps just to study and reference them. Their meaning and purpose is not mine to exploit. Anyhow, just something to get you going

Look who's posting. Yours truly. This is strange- I feel like this space is kind of liminal and awkward in a way where I'm not sure how to interact with it. Let's try this. I just found this photo I took of my grandmother last christmas where a flash of another camera was accidentally synchronized with it:


The effect is rather ghostly which is what I've been looking for... Ed Moorman has asked me to illustrate and design the cover of his upcoming ghost anthology and I'm still in the process of gathering ideas and information... the intial image I was going to submit is a little strange and still under wraps... Meaning I still have a lot to do in terms of making and deciding.

It's intriguing to be illustrating and working in this process again. I enjoy it much more outside of an illustration class perhaps due to the somewhat unavoidable montony of the class's format/structure and also for this project's collaboration factor. I'm not sure if I knew how to grow in that enviornment and class set-up.... I've realized a lot this semester that my process of thinking was and to some degress still is very linear and reliant on that linear model. I find that illustration sometimes follows a very rigid formula based off of well known symbols and subjects and working with these generalities can allow anyone to communicate with another of a large mass of people visually. But I'm constantly amazed about the individuality that can develop stylistically. I think that a converstion with John Gaunt helped me summarize my views. When he asked me if I would rather have my own problems or create my own and to me the most logical answer is both.

The work that I am making currently has been (trying to be) absent of formulas and the struggle has never been better. Not knowing and playing can be very freightening but sometimes the best thing for you. It will take me time to figure out what this all means but feeling this sure about being unsure feels like the right thing.

I'm not sure if I can write much more. The blog is kind of stressing me out. Anyhow, see you around.

New Blog?

A couple of good friends of mine have been keeping their blogs up and running and I'm been considering this... I'm really bad when it comes to digital keepings because quite frankly, they aren't tangible and are also 'not real' if you know what I mean. I kind of have trouble with that aspect, but none-the-less why not try it out again? So I think essentially, I'll start posting again, work, thoughts, feelings, etc. But I can't make any expectations or promises to and for you, you know?

Anyways, see you cats around.

Doris Salcedo

I just discovered Doris Salcedo through a blog and I am facisinated with her work. Her is a fascinating but brief statement she has made about her work:

“I have come to meet people that have had the generosity of sharing with me their pain. Pain is constantly being revived. I think that allows for the establishment of another type of relation with reality. The distance between them and me disappears, allowing their pain to take over me, to take over my center. If I manage to make a good piece that circulates in the center of society, then their pain will enter into the core of this society. The victims will become the main protagonists.”

Her words are eerie and meaning matches. Regarding the boundaries of life and art, this is topical in human nature rather than social, political distinctions. I feel that conveying the generality of pain can lead to other topics as those, however, based on my brief research and her statement, I feel that she focuses on the interpretation of the general, not the specified associated with that. Her work is curious to me in the sense that these objects are everyday and function simply, but with changing context they have become dark and looming, allowing for a narrative element to exist based off of a system of lack of information and assumptions.

Amazing amazing work. I hope to one day work in such materials to gain understanding.



Oh my I just realized a huge revelation... information that holds visual record and recording connotations of everyday in new contexts, it may be general but think of Johnathan Callan's work of books... timebased recordings... Salcedo's work that contains ware of furniture........ i need to think more about this in order to retain and communicate... something that I'm working on constantly....

i'm very anxious about several things...